Tonight I FaceTime'd with Molly. We both went to Panera Bread and ordered something. We then found mobile hotspots and "ate dinner together." It felt really good to see her cute smile again. I realize I really miss her, but I'm not sure I'm ready to rush things with her yet. What do I mean by that? Well, I know she's super fun to be around, and I know she makes me smile whenever I see her, and I know she's beautiful and easy to look at, I just don't know if I'm ready to move in together yet. I feel like that is a really big step and I'm not sure I'm emotionally mature/ready for that just yet. I'm not willing to give up being a guy. I like being able to hoot and holler with the guys and make cat calls. I like being able to come home at night and not have to worry about stumbling over myself and being chewed out. Not that I think Molly would do any of this; I'm just saying I'm not sure I'm ready to grow up yet. The thing I have going against me / in Molly's favor is that I'm no longer around my boys (Jason, Bryan, etc), therefore the opportunities to do these "guy things" aren't going to be as rampant. The other thing is I know she is a very special girl and I would hate to lose something wonderful like her just because I wanted another couple nights of acting like an idiot. My plan is to continue taking it slow and see where things go. I'm still young, and it's still a very important decision with significant implications, so the last thing I would certainly want to do is make a haste decision with such huge implications.
But I do like her a lot and I do think she is something special. :-/
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